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Long story why this question is coming up so I won't go into it especially since some don't get the importance of open communication and confessions not to mention testimony...but, the question I keep getting asked by God this week is what are you seeking...both big picture as in God and smaller picture as in this day or this situation..

Not that anyone will care but my answer is currently,
Big picture...God
Smaller picture...to be told I have value (not necessarily in words) To know in both heart and mind that there is someone fighting for me because I have something to offer. IOW's to "feel" it

Hey Lori. I am seeking assurance and I feel that and get that assurance from the Bible; God's words. For me it is fleeting and the assurance wanes and doubt creeps in. Insecurity and fear of the unknown future here in the earth. I am seeking God first for sure, and His love and approval. I also seek an inner peace, a tranquility and confidence in Christ.

I have mixed feelings about being appreciated and seen as having value necessarily. We all have value to God and Jesus Christ and we all have value as human beings, whether it is shown or given to us is beyond my control. My small actions have led to 3 marriages that I know of and I am blessed as a "facilitator" or in influencer, getting people together to meet and fellowship, make lasting friendships and love. My goal is to get people thinking about God all the time, in all things.

I am at a point where I don't know if God wants ME to make a move and start preaching or getting into a church or if God Himself will present me with an opportunity or a mission. I want to hear from God and I do, yet I want a defined purpose and goal and I want to be able to envision myself in a role of teaching, helping or volunteering. So, I keep waiting but I am gradually preparing to travel for some reason, like I think something is coming and I will have to be mobile.

Let's talk more about this it's very interesting.