patrick jane forums

Please don't think I'm calling your motives into question.  I'm not.  I'm just trying to determine what this place is, why it exists, what it's purpose is and what it should mean to me.

I understand completely what you are talking about in terms of other forums.  I've tried speaking up at other places-- so called 'Christian' forums where you have to think and speak only of approved topics in an acceptable manner.  Challenge their thinking?  Heretic!

I stumbled across CherubRam's forum a few months ago and within a day he had invited me to Theology Forum and I truly appreciate what it is, and I know you are a big part of what it is, so thank you for that and again, I'm not questioning you beyond my honest questions in wanting to understand.

My own awakening I've shared elsewhere came about in a very small forum setting which I had found while searching to gain insight around some strange dreams I'd been having.  I found a man-- named Mark also, who could understand dreams and believe it or not, he was able to interact with me, in my dreams.  I would see him, speak with him, sit with him, walk with him and so on, and we became fast friends.  I visited him once in person in Wyoming and we sat and had lunch together... well I had lunch and he had coffee and pie.

We keep in touch only on rare occasion these days as he prefers his own company mostly, lives remotely in the mountains of Colorado and enjoys some solace there.  He facilitated incredible changes in me and I know without a doubt that I wouldn't be here or in any forum had he not shown me the things he did, when he did, and the way he did.

That forum blew up while we conversed together and then not long afterwards he left and then the forum literally blew up and disappeared.  I've never found another place that felt right, though I tested waters at several different places-- no where felt right and my fire faded.

Then my wife developed a brain tumor that was taking her sight and that and other cares of this world robbed me of any interest in spiritual things and for the last number of years I haven't spoken of any of these things at all until I clicked upon Cherubram's place, Theology Forum and now here.

When I discovered (I think it was you who told me) that the Tattooed Theist was the site owner there and when I looked at some of his stuff I was drawn in and finding the site to be at least somewhat of a safe space for seekers of truth I opened up a little and in doing so my dreams returned and so I speak there of what I know from what I'm shown and told.  Weird eh?

And of this place?  Who knows?